Molly

My name is Molly. I am thirty one years old. I have had alopecia for many years. Small patches would come and go. I could hide it fairly easy. I started to loose hair at the bottom part of my head. I no longer could wear a pony tail. Then, it rapidly started to fall out. I was also pregnant. I thought to myself it must be the pregnancy and hormones. I decided to shave my head. It was such a release to finally have some control over this disease. So, I was pregnant and wearing a wig. My hair was growing back in spots and not in other areas. I had my beautiful baby boy. I also had no vistors at the hospital because of the shame of my shiny bald head. I knew I had to get control and not let this disease destroy my happiness. I wonder why did I loose my hair at thirty? I had hair my whole life and why now? So, like you I researched. I began going to acupuncture, dermatologist, and even therapy. The dermatologist was not a help at all. She suggested steriod shots and thats about it. Acupuncture was so nice but very expensive. During a session my acupuncturist asked my if I was an angry person. This confused me. I never thought I was angry. I was always nice to strangers. Then, I realized yeah I am angry! I am angry about my childhood, parents, just things that happened in my life. So, I began my journey. I started therapy. I am realeasing anger. Finding forgiveness. Striving for peace. I must say after my baby I also lost my eyelashes, eyebrows. Loosing facial hair seems a whole other grief process. It’s was harder to loose my eyelashes and eyebrows. But, I am learning. I have become a fabulous makeup artist. Berfore, I was lip gloss and mascara. I am also learning about allergic reactions from the enviroment. Like most people with alopecia I have suffered with allergies and asthma. I am almost convinced it’s something I’m eatting. Something my body had become allergic to. Is it glueten? I just don’t know. But, I am still on my journey. I will keep you updated. Sorry to ramble. Thank you for your time. Sincerly, Molly